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let the show begin
Sunday, Feb. 11, 2001 - 11:32 p.m.
i had practice today with my scented boyz. i wonder if that is going to be strictly my circle? daniel, andrew, jordan, neil ? brendan? i dont see kelvin really getting in there, maybe from time to time, but i'd be happy with that...oh an di like wilson/anita too, dean is great too, haha she/he is a fucking riot, i see bits of myself in him.im getting more and more uncomfortable iwth my body. i thought i was at this stage where i was completely happpy, but i have to learn ohw to eat better .i think i've gained some weight, but who is to say what weight i should be anyways? is it too much to ask for someone who likes me just for me, and not how i look? i know thats a big request, god, i mean not like i can do that. i say from this day forth, im going to do it, back to the gym and back in my routine. i want to be hot again! i feel bloated right now. im listening to by your side by sade, this great song i found from sex and the city.. DOwnload it now anyone who reads this! its soooooo...a sad/inspirational song, it makes me want ot stay in my apartment forever. so the show is in 4 days. it will either be a break through for me, or utter, utter, disaster? lets see how things turn up. i like neil
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