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bitch is me
Thursday, Aug. 22, 2002 - 3:17 p.m.
im not sure if im a bad person. I think deep down i think that i am. instance... ok, so me and charlies new beau ERIK, well, lets just say that we dont exactly mesh that well together. Like we do, or atleast he seems to think so, but i've realized after careful thought that...ahem, i hate him. He's just so annoying, he's like one of those ppl that are always around, and they have nothing good to offer anyone, but they're still always around. anyways, after the instance last saterday where i totally spazzed at him, finally, i had a talk with charlie yesterday that was totally unexpected. When i say unexpected, i mean it was totally unintentional on my part. So after 3-4 hours of talking to him, guess what? i think there going to break up. I know that i am a pretty smooth talker, but could i have single handedly broken up a relationship? I mean obviously a part of me says that if charlie can even consider what i am saying to him and think about it, then it means that those thoughts must have already been in his head right? i couldn't have just put them there, i mean, im his friend, im not his godfather. anywho, basically, i feel like a bitch. Erik knows that he pissed me off on saterday too, and im actually quite ...whats the word, quite ,....im not sure of the word that im loooking for, but i feel like im on a complete power trip, do you know what i mean? its like i feel like going up to Erik today (who has probablly heard the bad news already), knocking on his door, just looking him in the eyes and saying "I told you, dont FUCK with me, you'll get BURNED"... aren't I a BiTcH??? yes...i think so. Hopefully, that wont show with Andy. Im so scared to jinx anything
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